Monday, December 4, 2006

the thing about movies is


that they can never kill anyone the whole plot of the film could be to kill the main character but still we stop and see that they can change we see them for the humans they are connect them to ourselves and cant let them die we become them and we cant die we cant believe that we will die all of you reading this you me my neighbors my neighbors neighbors will die we will all perish that is why you cant just work your whole life to try and and make up for that fun in the end you have to do what you want see what you want do what feels right im not talking about in any kind of moral way i mean that this world is too filled with people who are waiting to seee that life will come and sweep them off their feet into the sands of destiny where they can take all the sands of the desert and turn them into a glass sculpture of unfathomable beautythat there life or the life that they wanted the part that will mean the most to them will fit into a single paragraph in the conclusion of their story you have to wake up and go and do not recline stand up start running and go movies show us all these people we want to live beacause we want to live we want to live through them we want to be part of their triumph if even for a fading surreal moment a moment lived in the deepest darkest of our souls a part of us that not even we can see a part that we cant fool a part of us that dies each day we live and is born each day we get up a part of us that lives in the hope that one day we will do that which makes us human the thing that drives us the thing that we keep tucked away because it is so frail that if it broke we would have nothing so we do nothing we sit and play chess and watch movies in which we can let others almost lose but when they have it all out there it comes back to them we know that it is this part of us that we live for but we know that it would be hard maybe too hard for us to do maybe we still dream about it but it is just that a dream and so we live our lives to die some will love some will marry and have more children to face these same troubles but in the end wether alone or surrounded by family we come to an end we all will find ourselves breathing our last breathes with nothing to look back on but the choices we made wether we would change them or not it is done wether we tried to do what it was or not we will have to accept that there is nothing else we can do anymore and that finally we would have the courage if only we had the time to go live out the things that we most earnestly wanted but there are no more days and no more white horses there is nothing left to say but good bye and luck pass on what you can let go of what you can and die there is nothing left to do but die it is all of our fates each one of us must at some point face the nature of our own mortallity we must see that this world will kill us all and we can either spend the time we have waiting or we can spend it living we can give up or take charge of the time we have left the choice is ours so get busy livin or get busy dyin and kill the part of you thats stops the head way you need to be making because when it comes down to it we end.